John 15: 26-27; 16:4-15
Today we celebrate the Feast Day of Pentecost which is often referred to as the birthday of the Church because it is when the apostles went out and preached thus establishing the beginning of the Church. Pentecost is probably one of the most important days on the Church calendar. We should be overjoyed because we have been waiting and anticipating this day for 50 days. We sit here and go, “Oh, hum! I guess if you have to God, lay it on me!” Why? I believe it is because we have not prepared ourselves to receive the Holy Spirit.
What I mean by this is we do not understand that God loves us. Our greatest challenge is not to love others, we all love someone, and our greatest challenge is to know and believe that we are loveable and loved by God. We have such poor self-esteem and lack confidence that prevents us from receiving the Holy Spirit. We do not see ourselves as God see us, we see ourselves with all of our faults, our wounds our ugliness, and so when we come to this feast day, we are not ready to receive what God wants to give us. Here is a question to prove my point, if this week we said, “God where are you?” or “God I do not know what to do, and I am filled with fear.” If we have said anything like this we are “stinking thinking,” and we are not ready to receive the Holy Spirit. We need to hear God say, “I love you, in your ordinary life.”
In our first reading from the Acts of the Apostles, we hear that on this day of Pentecost there was a strong driving wind that made a big noise, there were tongues of fire, that appeared on each of them and they began to speak in different languages. We can get all caught up in thinking this is how we must feel for Pentecost to happen. We do not need the big noise, tongues of fire and speaking in different languages they are the signs of Pentecost. The keeper of Pentecost is that the apostles heard these things and they knew and understood God loved them, and their lives were changed. We need to hear God say, “I love you, in your ordinary life.”
Our second reading is given to us to admit all the things we do to fill our hearts with love that will never fill us, such as immorality, impurity, lust, jealousy, selfishness, envy and drunkenness. Did we hear any of ourselves in those things, maybe we should read them over again, they are on page 1084. We need to hear God say, “I love you, in your ordinary life.”
In our Gospel Jesus says, “I have so much more to tell you, but you cannot bear it now.” Why is this, because we do not know we are loved! If we truly come to believe this, then our lives can be changed by the Holy Spirit. We need to hear God say, “I love you, in your ordinary life.”
I pray, on this day of Pentecost we prepare ourselves to hear the Lord, God say, “I love you, in your ordinary life.” When we know this then we will be able to receive which is all the gifts of the Holy Spirit.