Nineteenth Sunday in Ordinary Time
I Kings 19:9, 11-13
Romans 9: 1-5
Matthew 14:22-23
Why are we here? It is good to occasionally stop, think of our lives, and ask ourselves, “Why are we here?” There can be many answers to the question, but we must know one good answer.
In our first reading, Elijah is standing in a cave, and he has been told that God will pass by. He experiences how God has revealed himself to his people in wind, earthquake, and fire. But God was not in any of those ways. Elijah experienced God in a new way, in a tiny whisper, and he hid his face.
If you continue reading verse 13, God asks, “Elijah, why are you here?” Elijah responded “Because I wanted to see you! I was afraid and filled with doubt.” God continues by reassuring Elijah that he will always be with him.
Our Gospel story is another story about “Why are you here?” In our story, Jesus sends the disciples out ahead of him onto the Sea of Galilee, and in the darkest part of the night, Jesus comes out to the disciples, and they initially think he is a ghost. Knowing the disciples are scared, Jesus says, “Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid.” Peter asks, “Lord, if it is you, let me come out to you.” Jesus responds with, “Come,” Peter climbs out of the boat and begins to sink. Peter screams, Lord, save me, and Jesus reaches down, takes Peter by the hand, and says, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt.” One can now go on preaching about getting out of the boat, and I have many times.
I want to share a new insight about this story after discovering that for the Gospel writer Matthew, his favorite way to depict the “Church” was as a boat being tossed by the waves, but it is unsinkable. This was because the Church was under great persecution at this time.
Here is my new interpretation of the story. Jesus sends his disciples out across the Sea of Galilee, and he goes up the mountain to pray. Jesus clearly tells the disciples, “Take courage, it is I; do not be afraid.” However, Peter asks, “Lord, if it is you, let me come out to you.” Here is when I wonder if Jesus didn’t say something like? “Peter, I clearly told you it is me, but if you want to come, let’s see what you got!” Peter climbs over, and begins to sink, and says, “Lord, save me!” Jesus now stretches out his hand grabs Peter, and says, “Peter, why are you here? You are sinking in the water? You should have stayed in the boat! Whoever taught you that you can walk on water? Stay in the boat!” My other reason for coming to this insight is the wind and the waves only become calm when Jesus returns to the boat.
Why are we here? Stay in the boat! What do we do when life is crashing in on us, like a crushing wind, an earthquake, or a fire? Do we throw all of our faith away, and sit and sulk? Or do we stay in the boat, the Eucharist, and hear Jesus say, “Why are you here? Stay in the boat!”